prestently listening to:No Doubt

intentions to: work on the art project i should have been working on in the class i skipped today

soberity level: 1 cup'o'joe

i'm a cheater. i skipped my art class today to look at cars on-line and finish the shirt i'm making for Evan. the shirt looks great! it say "CREEP" in old english and has a white star that glows as a noticual star. "CREEP" glows in the dark as well. i did good.

as for the car situation...well, i found plenty of cars i want and even a few that i could possible bid on, however... seeing how i might be losing my license as of the 5th of november, i think i'll chill out on car shopping. i figured this might not be a bad turn of event after all. i could save up for that year w/o a license and get somthing wonderful.

next project...find a boyfriend that lives near-by so he'll pick me up from work and drive me home. boyfriend or just friend i guess. but i kinda want to try out one of those boyfriend types. (whos getting lonely?) i'm not lonely, just bored. my friends have all disapeared with THIER significant others. wheres mine? ok, so boyfriends are bothersome as i came to conclue not long ago, but i need someone!

i need a best friend. like the kind you have in elementary school. the kind that think your the bestest friend in the whole wide world and you swear you'd live together and be inseperable forever if it were plausable. like Erk Lohr. i miss him )0: lotts. ya know the kinda friend you can call when your bored even though you have nothing to say. the kind you can drop by thier house at any hour and just watch tv if you want.

i'm lonely.

perhaps i should leave the house more often? i don't supose the kind of people i'd like to find will just wander into my apartment? its not that i'm some sort of hermit...ok i have been for the last month. but thats not me at all. i don't know whats going on with me at all.

i think i'm just tired of tring so hard all the time. it took a great deal of energy/control to hang-out with the last brood of peeps i was hanging with. perhaps this is like a social nap. i should really get up 'n out soon though. winter is just around the corner and i get crazy cabin fever always followed by a deep depression.

(suck it up Kristen! get your ass in gear girlfriend!)

that couldn't have been me giving myself advice, i never say "girlfriend"