prestently listening to:steve miller band

intentions to: take a hot shower to snap me outta this

soberity level: ((sigh))

its cold this morning.

i woke-up at 5:30am because i couldn't breath. i'm still sick.

i stayed in bed till 6, then i got up to go to the gym. running cleared up my nose. i did some weight stuff then left.

the road is lonely early in the morning.

the mornings light is always cold and clear.

i feel quiet today.

i hope this isn't the start of my winter cloak. i always seem to cloak myself from everyone come winter. it just seems more right to be alone in the cold?

last year wasn't bad...it was horrible. with ian around, i felt lonelier than ever.

i haven't much else to say just now.

this is about the time i start tring to latch on to people because i get scared.

then i scare them away.

sorry.

wish me luck in court today and tomorrow.

sorry i'm so dismal today. i'll try and lighten up later.

p.s. thanks for all the responses guys. you rule.

no brandon updates just yet. kristine the match maker, brandon and i have loose plans to meet at a show i guess? i dunno. somtimes i can't tell if its all kristine's enthusiasim or really some of his. she means well. i love her.