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Happy Christmas Eve to you.

oh Christmas. i really do not enjoy this holiday at all. you tricked me this year into remembering the majic Christmas brings with lights and other decor as a child. i enjoy Christmas time with you. but, then you go away and Christmas turns back into what its been since i was 10. parents fighting over whom gets the kids for what day, and more specifically our hours of visitation. they get all crazy and re-read thier custidy reports from the courts. i get all stressed out thinking about how much money i've spent and how much of it i shouldn't have. then theres the critic cusins from dad's side and the alcoholics from mom's side to deal with.

for the last 2 holiday seasons i've boycotted the whole thing for the most part. i mean, if family was over for diner, i'd make my appreance for coffee but then go back to my room. theres far too much guilt and pride in this season for me.

this year, the head aunt on dad's side refused to have her usual Christmas Eve diner due to some family drama that i've refused to hear about. likewise, my mom has decided not to ask grandpa 'n company to our house for diner because the aunt with the psycotic kids lives with them and my mom doesn't want them at our house.

sooooooooooooo. i guess i don't have any plans at all. i hadn't really thought about it till just now. cool!kinda neat.

luck at work for you!

i hope you have a perfectly wonderful Christmas with your parents. i imagine you guys' Christmas to resemble the ones on comercials. (plus singing electronic animals.) thats neat.

you can call me to say hello if you want to. i haven't a thing to do till thursday.