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entry- green faced=gross (9-23)

so, about one week ago i was flipping out because i thought that greg, my dream boy, was making out with some girl i'd never heard of before.

its confirmed. i was over there last night and, through my sluth detective ease dropping skills, i heard greg talking to neal over the phone...

"blah blah... your at carolina's? no i'm going over there later. you guys make up?"

isn't it obvious?! carolina is neal's g/f. directly following a comment reguarding neal's location at the girlfriends house, greg mentions 'he's going over there later'.

so i imagine the conversation like this...

n- blah blah

g- your at carolina's?

n- ya. you at alison(your make-out partner)'s house?

g- naw, i'm going over there later?

n- sick! we're both gonna score tonight!

g- you guys make up?

now you see how clearly he is making out with this girl? no whats worse? i found out she 20. i'm 20, almost 21. we're, like equals, in age anyway. but still! any comparisons drawn between her and i are bad news...beacuse she won. she got the guy. the guy i've lusted over, cried for and genuinely loved for about 10 months.

i lost.

this will make him and i better friends i think. i'm looking forward to that. he's awesome. he deserves what he wants, for sure. but i'm better. and i'm allowed to be sad, atleast for today.

i'll get over it soon, i promise. this is probably best. i gotta get over him now.